Shame


incontinence, patient, shame

I loved the film Shame. I found it moving, and simple, and complicated, and dirty, and clean all at the same time. I was drawn in but horrified, not by the central character’s sex addiction but the easy decline of me into voyeur, and the extent of that voyeurism. I was as pulled into the […]

20th August 2012

In Memoriam – Part I


family & parenting

I’m interested, if not an expert, on how we use photography and social media and how it influences our lives and in my case both my experience of (and presentation to the world) of my parenting. Above is a picture I took a few months ago. I kept it on my phone despite feeling very […]

30th June 2012

Birth stories…


birth, babies, bodies, breastfeeding, hope

Two weeks ago we were back with my second son in the hospital where my first was born. More hours to think, gazing at our London, which now of course, five years on from my start at mothering, has a great shard across it, cutting up through the skyline. While there I was mulling. A […]

13th May 2012

Fun with medicine?


family & parenting

I love Citizen Kane. I’ve been round the houses in formulating my view, seen its bombastic flaws and stupid overindulgence and returned to loving the audacity of the hero and, furthermore, the way this chimes with the audacity of the film-maker behind it. It is hard to watch this canonical film, though it is utterly […]

8th March 2012

Singing lessons (and biting)


family & parenting

He’s been ill again, Boy2. Since last week. Though I wouldn’t want you to think he hasn’t been cared for, cleaned, cuddled, Calpol-ed and, when appropriate, seen by medical professionals, I was kind of in denial. I kept an initial low profile for a few reasons. Firstly, because it isn’t fair to go into too […]

17th January 2012

Deep Breaths – Part Two – Four Days


family & parenting

  I like institutions. As a rule they play to my sense of natural justice and speedy sense of injustice when systems go wrong. They have a comforting intractability and strangeness, even when you are a clear outsider fumbling to understand the rules. The weirdness of our hospital stay was enhanced by being in an […]

7th December 2011

Deep Breaths – Part One – Day Four


family & parenting

After our ride in an ambulance and decorating disaster we were seen, soothed and sent home under doctor’s orders to return to hospital if he got any worse, or if we were worried. I feel for paediatricians, all doctors actually, because I think they have to tread a fine line between dismissing concerns and scaring […]

6th December 2011

Calpol on the ceiling


family & parenting

It is funny how the minor problems we have to face in life can reflect the biggest changes we’ve encountered. If I was blogging this time five years ago, I’d probably be pondering how to remove red wine from the polished wood floorboards. Today, I’m wondering to how exactly one removes Calpol from one’s ceiling. […]

4th December 2011

Tick Tock


family & parenting

I was going to write a letter to my son on starting school and Oh, my little one, there is so very much to say. About how wonderful you are and how my dreams for you reach high and wide (in that I know your strengths and gifts and delicious potential). And then how they, […]

23rd September 2011