Lucky Stars


depression, hope

I realise I’ve posted a good bit about remembering – remembering the good and remembering the bad. I saw my Mum this week and she told me that memories faze and fade, and that everyone with larger families, or older children, has melded memories and has forgotten much of the minutiae of early family life. […]

20th February 2011

Glorious Forgetting


depression, family & parenting

Newborn continues to wake up. Both throughout the night, but also in the day. He holds his head, chin jutting out, eyes wide open, hungry for new sights. And he’s found a new way to call for me. Wailing, yes, of course but he’s started talking too. All delightful, glorious, babysqualk nonsense. Scribble talk. Frankie […]

12th February 2011

Shit days


family & parenting

It has been a shitty day. I mean seriously, Newborn (ish) has shat two of his loveliest babygros and his lovely new amazing baby soothing vibrating baby miracle chair. The seeping orange menace is EVERYWHERE. Me, him, clothes, the changing mat. Not huge pools that could be cleared up easily you understand, but tiny smears […]

1st February 2011

Introductions


birth, babies, bodies, breastfeeding, words

First words are a difficult subject for me, and I don’t mean the first words said by Spider-boy (for the record it was ‘baby’, he’s such a glorious narcissist) or his brother. I mean the first words I said to my children. The first words they heard from me. I really believed, before I had […]

26th January 2011

Symmetry and Time Travel


depression, family & parenting, hope

I had my six week check today. It was a transforming experience, so different to the crazed meeting with my first child, and more impressively so different to the doctor’s appointments when I was pregnant.   My GP saw the date which has a fortuitous look to it 11.1.11. She’s the least sentimental seeming person […]

11th January 2011

Spogs and snails and puppy dog tales


family & parenting

Well, less snails, but I was eating lunch today with some fabulous, self-confessed former spogs (smug parents of girls), talking kids and gender politics. They have a wonderful 4 year old girl and a beautiful one year old boy, we have two lads 3.5 and just over 0. We were speculating not only on how […]

9th January 2011

Beginnings


birth, babies, bodies, breastfeeding, incontinence

So this is the start. I was prompted to start blogging after reading a piece in today’s Guardian about birth injuries. The piece is both upsetting and startling, and the posts in response similarly fascinating, moving, political, and to some, it appears, terrifying. Here it is: http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/dec/10/torn-apart-by-childbirth?showallcomments=true#end-of-comments I am a dreadful gore whore when it […]

10th December 2010